Tuesday, March 31, 2009

A Special Day for a Special Boy



I have been needing to update Luke's blog for a while now, but things have been so crazy with James going back for his hernia surgery and getting back on schedule. Above is a video of the kids singing "Happy Birthday" to Wittle Bubba. Just ignore the Mommy in the background with the bad singing voice! They really enjoyed making cupcakes for him (and they loved eating them, too!).

We were so touched by the outpouring of prayers and love on our angel's birthday. I had no idea how many people would help us celebrate Luke's special day. We are thankful that family and friends were able to visit Luke at his site--you all have no idea how much it meant to us! We want to thank Uncle Mike, Nicole, Lillie, Kim and Emery, Jacque, Trip, Jax, and Alyn for visiting Luke's site for his birthday. They sent some pictures and I wanted to share them with you all.











As you an see, Luke's site was quite festive and I know that he was smiling up in heaven. Thank you, guys! I wanted to share something that our good friend, Jacque, sent us after visiting Luke's site:
"I took the kids with me this morning for Luke's birthday. His plot was easy to see because he had already had some visitors that had left some fun balloons for him with big "Happy Birthday" written all over them. I have to tell you this was the 3rd time I have visited the site and this was the first time I really broke down (you know I'm not a big crier). You have shared so much of Luke with us that we have taken somewhat of an ownership over him. I was watching Alyn while we were there and was really sad that she never got to meet her little buddy Luke. Thank you thank you thank you for letting Rich and I into the room after his surgery, he was so beautiful even with all of those wires. It has been such beautiful weather here all week and today it rained, it was as if God was shedding His tears on all of us. When I got back in the car a song by MercyMe called 'Bring the Rain' was on."
Here is a part of the song that Jacque pointed out...it means a lot and I hope that I am living up to this verse:
"To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times."


My friend, Lillie, who I worked with for two years at Little Saints (boy, do we have some stories to share...) also wrote me a note that really made an impact on me. It was about a gift that a friend brought to her family when her grandmother passed away. Read on...
"A friend of the family gave each of my grandmother's kids a lily plant at her funeral. When I asked why (because I always thought you sent flowers) this is what she said. She gives the lily plants because the plant itself means "peace". Since my grandmother had passed, she was now at peace with God up in heaven and her family should feel peace knowing that she is taken care of and is no longer in any pain. The flower that the plant produces what almost looks an open circle. She said that when we see the flower that it is my grandmother giving us a hug and telling us that she is still watching over us. To this day, every member of my family has a lily plant in their house. This is why I gave one to Luke. That way he know that all of you are giving him a hug on his special day even if you can not be there with him."

My friend and fellow heart angel mom, Rebecca, and her family also celebrated Luke's birthday with cupcakes. I love how her son, Wyatt, doesn't eat the icing. Too cute! Thank you for sharing our angel's day, Rebecca. I just know our little ones had the best day with Jesus and all the other angels.





I also wanted to share some pictures of our balloon release...





It was amazing to watch the balloons float up to heaven for Luke and his friends to enjoy. The kids truly believe that the balloons floated up to Luke and that he got to play with them. I like to believe that happened, too.

Once again, thank you for your prayers on Luke's birthday. It was a difficult day, but we rejoiced in the fact that Luke is with God and that he is no longer hurting. We are now waiting, once again, for Luke's Angel Day to arrive. I am not sure how we will handle that day, but I am sure that we will be happy when we think of our angel's sweet life. God bless you all!

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Happy 1st Birthday, Wittle Bubba!

My dear friend and fellow heart angel mom, Rebecca, created a montage for her angel Annabelle. I thought it was beautiful and decided to create one for Luke. How can a life only last 5 1/2 weeks? But, oh what a life it was! God bless you all and Happy Birthday to our angel!

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Waiting...

This time last year, we were waiting. Now I find myself waiting once again. The difference is that last year we were waiting to welcome a healthy baby boy. This year, we are waiting to celebrate his birthday without him here. How do you celebrate an angel's birthday? What will he think when he hears us sing "Happy Birthday"? Will he realize how much we miss him? Will he realize how much we wish he was here with us? Will he realize that we have not forgotten about him? I don't ever want Luke to think that we have forgotten about him or that we have abandoned him. I would give anything to have all four of our children with us.

Luke's first birthday is this Thursday, March 12th. I can't believe all that we have faced this year. We have had unimaginable triumphs and unthinkable tragedy. We have buried one son and welcomed yet another. We have spent weeks in the NICU with two boys, praying incessantly over their cribs. We have left friends in Texas and made new ones in Tennessee. We have relied on God more than ever before. And in the end, through our faith, we have persevered. As James' letter in the Bible says, "for you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. And let perseverance be perfect, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing." James 1:3-4. If you remember, this is one of the reasons that we gave James his name. I read this passage at night while James was in the hospital and it helped renew my faith each time. I feel like the character in the poem, "Footprints" (the one where God carries the man during the trials in his life). God has held me closely during this year and I think I am finally at the point where I can walk by myself. Besides, God must have gotten pretty tired carrying me all that way!!!! I thank God for giving me the strength I have needed to get through this year.

So, as we prepare for Luke's birthday, I am reminded of our other heart angel friends who have recently celebrated their first birthdays. Eden and Annabelle just had birthdays within the last month. Their mothers wrote beautiful tributes to them and I am so glad to have them as Heart Mom friends. The kids are going to help bake and decorate a cake and we will release balloons for Luke and his friends to play with. If Luke touched your life in any way, please take a second to say or sing "Happy Birthday" to our angel on Thursday...I know he would love it! I think the hardest part about Luke's birthday is that we won't be able to visit him at the cemetery. Luckily, my brother-in-law, Mike, will be in Houston and he is going to visit Luke. I know that will make Luke smile as I am sure that he and Mike would have been good buddies (Mike is amazing with our kiddos). Thank you for doing this, Mike. You have no idea how much we appreciate this!!!!

Thank you for journeying with us throughout this past year. Your prayers and support have been wonderful and we are so thankful that you all are in our lives. God bless you all!